"Mercies In Disguise" A Father's Day Post

I love this song, Blessings, by Laura Story

It so perfectly describes the journey Hubby and I have been on for the past few years.

"What if the trials of this life are Your mercies in disguise."

We have lived this and have seen the Lord's hand in the trial that has been our life for the past few years.

We have struggled financially between job losses and a growing family.

It has not been easy...

especially for Hubby...

but through it all, we have been witness to the love and the provision of our Heavenly Father...

through it all, our hearts have grown for Him...

however, recently, Hubby's personal faith walk has become somewhat of a grueling marathon in which he has had to work very hard at staying the course even at his weakest moments...

those moments in which it would have been so easy to just give up...

to feel disheartened that all the training you did for this race was just not worth it...

was just too hard.

Hubby, however, has kept the pace and in those weak moments when he was the most thirsty and tired...

he chose to trust that the Lord would provide all the water and energy that he would need to keep running.

The trials of our race have become His mercies and we never would have been able to recognize that had we not been brought to this place of total dependance and trust.

Would we love for the Lord to make all of our financial worries disappear?

Of course we would but for now, that is not His plan and we have learned to wait.

Ever since November, many sweet friends have been praying hard for us and for Hubby to find another job and oh how we have felt those prayers.

It was so very scary when Hubby was laid off just 3 months after arriving home with Maggie and Lucy...

and one month before Christmas, with 7 kiddos!

ACK!

We had just begun to catch up from the last job loss, when we were plunged back into the stress of trying to make ends meet.

It was so hard on Hubby but instead of giving up and loosing faith...

he chose to see the blessings...

he was able to stay home and really get to know his two newest daughters...

he was able to reconnect with the kids and me as he had been working for a year in another state...

and he was able to help me manage the daily craziness of school and soccer and doctor appointments and therapies...

 
there were days that I really don't know what I would have done without him here.

BLESSINGS

There is another blessing that, I believe, has not yet fully come to fruition...

one that is taking shape...

one that has been on my heart for a long time now and one that could not have been revealed without those trials.

You see, for about a year now, the Lord has placed teaching on my heart...

only not for me...

but for Hubby.

I have watched as he has coached team after team in soccer...

I have watched as he has helped the boys with their math homework and rejoiced as they "got it"...

and I have watched him as he has nurtured and guided our family with strength and humor and patience and wisdom...

and now...

the Lord has provided the open door for Hubby to teach and to teach math...

his favorite subject!

Bleh

*grin*

Teaching was never something that Hubby had ever thought about or wanted to do.

He has had to let go of many of the expectations that society and his own, younger self had set...

and that was hard.

He has had to say yes to this, knowing that with a teacher's salary...

we will not be able to make those ends meet...

we will be short every month, way short, just on bills alone...

there will be nothing extra for, well, anything extra...

and that was hard...

that required a true leap of faith...

and he has said yes...

trusting that the Lord will fill that gap every month...

trusting that if this is where He wants us...

He will provide and He will bless Hubby with a greater sense of purpose...

a sense of worth that does not come from his salary but from his heart, and most importantly...

a greater and stronger faith as we watch Him show up, month after month.

From "Blessings":

What if my greatest disappointments or the aching of this life
Is the revealing of a greater thirst this world can't satisfy
What if trials of this life
The rain, the storms, the hardest nights
Are your mercies in disguise

We are excited to see what the Lord has in store for us this coming year but please pray for the boys as Hubby will be teaching at...

you guessed it...

their school!!

Bwhahahaha!

Happy Father's Day to a man who is learning and now has the opportunity to teach and to mentor and to make a difference.

I am so proud of you!