Maybe I expected too much...
I know Lucy expected much and was disappointed.
I am certain it will not be the last time and learning how to survive disappointment is good.
This is a good, normal life lesson for our kids.
However...
when the disappointment has everything to do with my beautiful, special daughter's special need...
that makes it a life lesson that I don't think my beautiful, special daughter needs to learn - ever.
We look at our girls as very special indeed...
we do not look at them and see limitations...
so when limitations are forced on them...
it is hard...
when expectations aren't met that could have been...
it breaks my heart.
On this day, she just wanted to fit in...
she just wanted to play with class mates whose friendships were still tender and new...
but that did not happen...
and it could have...
but we are now a society filled with unending, unbending rules and regulations designed to "protect" when in reality it only creates unnecessary boundaries and fear.
A society in which you think it better to spend money on a "special bus" for one child on that child's first ever field trip when that one child's Mom could have driven for free...
and been there to help that child play with her classmates whose friendships were still tender and new.
Sigh...
Lord fill me with grace today as I sort through the anger and pull up my boot straps for the work ahead and while this particular battle is important...
there are bigger battles looming on the horizon...
and to tell ya the truth, I am a bit battle weary...
but then He gives me this...
and with it the strength to hang in there and trust Him for another day.
Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
I know Lucy expected much and was disappointed.
I am certain it will not be the last time and learning how to survive disappointment is good.
This is a good, normal life lesson for our kids.
However...
when the disappointment has everything to do with my beautiful, special daughter's special need...
that makes it a life lesson that I don't think my beautiful, special daughter needs to learn - ever.
We look at our girls as very special indeed...
we do not look at them and see limitations...
so when limitations are forced on them...
it is hard...
when expectations aren't met that could have been...
it breaks my heart.
On this day, she just wanted to fit in...
she just wanted to play with class mates whose friendships were still tender and new...
but that did not happen...
and it could have...
but we are now a society filled with unending, unbending rules and regulations designed to "protect" when in reality it only creates unnecessary boundaries and fear.
A society in which you think it better to spend money on a "special bus" for one child on that child's first ever field trip when that one child's Mom could have driven for free...
and been there to help that child play with her classmates whose friendships were still tender and new.
Sigh...
Lord fill me with grace today as I sort through the anger and pull up my boot straps for the work ahead and while this particular battle is important...
there are bigger battles looming on the horizon...
and to tell ya the truth, I am a bit battle weary...
but then He gives me this...
and with it the strength to hang in there and trust Him for another day.
Do you not know? Have you not heard? The Lord is the everlasting God, the Creator of the ends of the earth. He will not grow tired or weary, and his understanding no one can fathom. He gives strength to the weary and increases the power of the weak. Even youths grow tired and weary, and young men stumble and fall but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:28-31
I am so sorry! You are wise to pick your battles. Hopefully, you can continue to educate and create empathy in the system. Praying for you and your sweeties!
ReplyDeleteClaiming those promises with you, Annie! So sorry about the disappointments. We've had a few of those here this week, too. Thanks for the Isaiah quote - very timely. :) Praying for your sweet girls - they're growing into such beauties!
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry.
ReplyDeleteThis post broke my heart. I hope Time has eased the pain of disappointment for you both.
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