Wednesday, August 13, 2014

Happy (belated) Birthday!

So Hubby's birthday has come and gone, as this happened...


on his birthday...


nice huh?

The upside...

we did get to celebrate with his sweet family in NC and that is always a party, esp when the good meds from the hospital have not worn off yet!


Lizzie's – not Hubby's

hehe

As crazy as it all was and thanks to some awesome gift suggestions from some wonderful friends...

the kids and I were able to get Hubby started on his teaching adventure.  My favorite suggestion was an encouragement jar that the kids and I loved creating for our Hubby/Daddy/Teacher...

thank you Jenni
filled with bible verses and little notes of encouragement, and love from all of us, that will hopefully get him through those moments of doubt and frustration.

Although after being home for the last 9 months, with 7 kids, 4 dogs, 2 crazy cats and one OCD wife...  

teaching Geometry to a classroom of sweet, obedient, quiet, respectful, eager to learn 8th graders will be a piece of cake!


Bwhahahaha!!!!!

Oh my sweet, wonderful Hubby...

How I love your quiet, respectful, eager obedience to the Lord and all that He has planned for you...

even teaching (gulp) math!

Just look at how well He has prepared you for this particular journey...







 Happy Birthday my love!

You are gonna rock 8th grade Geometry and all those Dodecahedrons! 

See, school hasn't even started and you are already teaching! 


Now can you please explain to me how 1 + 1 = 7 


Must be that "new math"!  

*snicker*

Wednesday, August 6, 2014

Momentary Weakness

This is hard...

I praise the Lord for the doctors and the medical technology that will give Lizzie the best chance of walking “normally” and living relatively pain free as she grows...

but this is hard.

My Mighty Mouse is hurting and itchy and immobile and uncomfortable and not very happy about any of it.

Going from this...




to this...


has been an adjustment...


a big adjustment...

She is 8 and the big picture here escapes her...

cause she is 8

but we remind her that this is temporary and we remind her that it is OK to feel some discomfort and itchiness and we remind her that she will be even mightier than before...

and we remind her that we . love . her!

It has been a bit of a rough road for this tomboy, soccer star, fire cracker, as Lizzie relinquishes control.  We trust, however, that during this time of total dependance, her attachment will secure, our bond will strengthen and that the Lord will use this time to grow her trust and fill her heart.

There is a mighty work going on within our Mighty Mouse and He is reassuring me that this will all be for her good and not just physically...

as we pray through the pain and the itchiness and the discomfort and even the anger.

Hang in there my sweet Lizzie

 For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory 2 Corinthians 4:17

It is a "momentary weakness"

Thursday, July 31, 2014

Happy Birthday - Again!

So, this journey, this adoption journey, is not always easy.


 There are unknowns and there are unanswered questions and there are pieces of the puzzle that will simply never fall into place.


For our girls, this is particularly true in that there are memories locked away that may never be revealed...


there are memories locked away that the Lord made certain would not be revisited...


there are parts to their childhood and of their very beginnings that may not ever be made known.


Imagine not knowing why you can not control your movements or speak clearly.


Imagine not knowing why your "legs don't work so good."


Imagine not knowing why you have this huge whole in your soul that just never seems to get filled up.


Imagine never knowing where you were born or who gave birth to you or the actual day that you were born...


your birthday...


or...


 even your age.

That has been one of our struggles with Maggie and Lucy...


their age.

We have good reason to suspect that Maggie is not 10 going on 11 and Lucy did not turn 9 in April.

It is hard...

trying to determine your child's age... 

and with Maggie and Lucy, there are other factors, like they both have cerebral palsy and they both, never went to school and they are both terribly behind socially and emotionally and developmentally... 

but is that due to the CP or to the circumstances in which they lived or because they are younger than their files tell us they are??

hard to know...

so...

when people ask the girls how old they are, in their wonderfully innocent, trusting and "no biggie" kind of way...

they will reply, "I don't know...  maybe 7 or 8 or 9!"

Have I told you how much I love these girls!

We have been honest with them and they both understand that we are trying to figure all that out but that in the end, it really does not matter cause they are home and they are loved and that will not change no matter what - no matter what age they are.

Now, according to Maggie's file, the birthday given to her by the orphanage was in December...

 so we celebrated in December...


 and then we started thinking that if we are going to change her age eventually anyway, why don't we change the month as well...

cause let's face it, with 7 kids, we are crazy busy during this wonderful month!

I don't need a birthday added in to the mix and then we started thinking that as long as we were going to eventually change her birthday month...

 we might as well give her my sweet Daddy's birthday!


I think he would approve and Maggie...


well, all it took was telling her that she could have a pool party in July and she was all in...

cause that is just how sweet Maggie rolls y'all!

So off we went to JuJu's house pool and we had ourselves a pool party...


and Maggie got to swim...


and Maggie got ice cream cake...


and Maggie got a swimming Ariel doll...


and Maggie was tickled pink and once again I find myself in awe of my children...

in awe of their ability to heal...

in awe of their trust...

in awe of their happiness...

and in awe of their capacity to love.

Happy Birthday again my sweet Maggie!


 We will love you and celebrate you every chance we get!

Wednesday, July 30, 2014

Surgery Eve

So, somehow, we find ourselves here...

the night before Lizzie's surgery.

Time!

We have had this discussion before!

It goes too fast!

When Lizzie came home with a clubfoot due to amniotic banding, we opted to try Ponseti casting instead of surgery...
 

18 clubfoot casts later and she was done! 


Yikes!

I don't regret our decision because we were doing what we felt gave her the better chance at a healthier foot for the long haul.

However, Lizzie's foot, much like Lizzie herself, was a toughy and was stubborn and apparently has a mind of its own as over the past year or so, it has started to regress and turn back and stiffen up on her, so much so that she now walks on her toes.

Although you would never know it!


Lizzie also had a few hand surgeries when she first got home to separate some of her fingers that had fused together, again from ABS (amniotic banding syndrome).


When the doctor at Shriners took a look at her hands, he thought we could go in again and separate them even more and we could do at least one hand at the same time that we did her foot.

That call we left totally up to Lizzie...

and after much thought and prayer, she said yes...

that is my brave girl!

So tomorrow is the big day.

We said goodbye to Charlie, Caleb, Em and Maggie and left them in JuJu and Christian's excellent care while Lucy came along for the ride.

These two...


They are so much alike in so many ways.


They love with all their hearts but hold much sadness there too.

Some days they are best buds and some days...

they are so not...

cause...

they are so much alike!

Granted Lucy is a little more Eeyore-ish and Lizzie is a little more Yosemite Sam-ish but trust me, they are more alike than Lizzie likes to admit!

Ha!

So tonight, we gave Lizzie a big meal...

we gave her a good bath...

and after Veggie's Tales...

she will snuggle in for the night with Momma and get ready for the next few months...

which includes a non weight bearing cast for 6 weeks, which means this will be Lizzie's ride for a while...


a full arm cast which means she will need some drivers for a while...


um yeah...

and more than likely no soccer this fall...


a tough one for our little soccer star.


I know, however, that the Lord will use this time to teach Lizzie and to allow her to enjoy more of our attention which she so desperately craves...

and when it is all said and done...

watch out soccer world...


ya thought she was fast before...

grin

Love you sweet girl!

As I reassured Lizzie that I would be with her tomorrow, she reminded me that “so will God.”

Oh my Mighty Mouse, I know your courageous spirit will continue to be an inspiration to all those whose path's you cross.

 Be strong, courageous, and firm; fear not nor be in terror before them, for it is the Lord your God Who goes with you; He will not fail you or forsake you. Deuteronomy 31:6

Saturday, July 26, 2014

It is Done

God provides...


and we say good-bye...


and we say thank you...


thank you Lord for the precious time we had here...


and the beautiful memories He created for us here...


and the blessing through which this particular provision, His provision, flowed.
 
 
 He is ever faithful and we are learning to be forever grateful through every lack and every weakness and ultimately, every single provision.
 
Blessed be the Lord, Who bears our burdens and carries us day by day, even the God Who is our salvation!  Psalm 68:19