Friday, February 5, 2010
It's the little things...
Do you know what this is?
Yes, it is a very cute Dora plate but to me it is so much more! Sweet little Lizzie asked, yes asked, for pancakes with syrup this morning. After catching my breath and doing my best impression of Wonder Woman by flying to the fridge and making those pancakes as fast as my loving Mommie hands would go (picture Flash on steroids), Lizzie had that plate of pancakes in front of her faster than she could change that determined mind of hers! As I tried desperately to watch every bite without Lizzie knowing that I was watching, I knew not to get my hopes up and to stay calm and not make a big deal about her lack of eating - again!! However, this morning, this glorious morning, Lizzie ate her pancakes! She ate ALL her pancakes - in less than 5 minutes, not the one hour that it normally takes her to eat 4 measly, mommie prodded bites!!! As I sat there completely stunned, trying to compose myself and suppressing the urge to scoop her up in my arms and do the happy dance, Lizzie quietly said, "Look Mommie, I eat all my bwekfas! I a big girl now!" OK, all composure lost and I am scooping and dancing:) Just perfect for my sensory girl!!
Little did we know that when we brought Lizzie home, with all of her so called "special needs," that we wouldn't be dealing with them nearly as much
as we would be dealing the effect of living the first 2 years of her life in an orphanage with nothing but boiling hot formula in a bottle with a HUGE hole in the nipple (to allow for quick drinking)
and congee (comparable to southern grits or oatmeal but still food that doesn't need to be chewed). Hello, she is 2!! She needs to use her teeth!! Sigh! Oh the things we take for granted and don't even think about until we love someone who has been deprived of them! I know I have talked about her lingering "orphanage issues" and her sensory issues before (sometimes it is very hard to tell where one ends and the other begins), but honestly we do deal with them usually every day in some version or another and at some level of intensity or another, but every day. I do expect most of them to continue to fade away after a certain amount of time or at least continue to lesson in intensity, but the truth is, we may be dealing with some of them forever, but hey, don't we all have issues that we deal with daily - orphanage or not? From her tantrums to her eating issues, our little Lizzie can be a handful but at the end of the day (each and every day), I thank God for my wondrously amazing little girl who enriches our lives beyond words. So this morning, another baby step, among so many baby steps, and we will celebrate them all because she is our beautiful little Lizzie!